Saturday, January 31, 2009

Quite the eventful Saturday

So today I had to wake up pretty darn early (for a Saturday — 7:45AM) to run some errands, like taking my sister to her band's rummage sale event. My nap following that was only brief, before I had to pick her up again. We went to Staples to get some supplies and then Robeks for our smoothie fix.

Afterward I went to a party at Jose's house. It was a family party, so I got to meet some of his aunts and uncles and cousins. I swear, all Filipino parties are the same! It had all the familiarities of a typical Fil-Am party:
  • Lots of Filipino and/or Chinese food in rectangular tin foil pans
  • "Are you hungry? Come eat!" "No thanks, it's okay!" "Are you sure?" "I'm sure." "Come on, eat!" "Well all right :D!" XD
  • Really loud uproarious laughter
  • All the kids secluded to another room playing games or watching TV or doing whatever else XD
  • Karaoke
  • A cousin named JR
Hehe, I couldn't help the last one. JR is suuuuch a common Filipino name, and that's the cousin I met. He actually graduated from CSULB with a degree in Studio Art - Graphic Design! I freaked out a bit! He switched from computer science and I from mechanical engineering! How crazy is that? It was really cool, we ended up talking about the classes and teachers and the program. It scared me a bit when he said I basically had to kiss ass :P I was planning on sort of befriending some teachers anyway, keeping touch with them as sort of mentors. I should visit JenZen again and talk to her :) She has a tendency to ramble, but I really like her, she's so cool and she helped me a bunch in life drawing. I won't totally kiss ass, but yea. He said the BFA program will take me longer to finish, and that even just the Studio Art with Graphic Design emphasis would be better degree than from other public schools, but yea. Maybe I'm ambitious? :P I'm still scared. I hope I can do this!

JR recommended taking a Concept class with Whitlow. I'll remember that name.

So, I mentioned kids being left to another room to leave the adults sprawled all over the first floor to mingle and talk. Jose, his brother Edward, and JR and I were in his room, watching the Japanese game show Gaki no Tsukai on his computer. If you haven't seen it, you're missing out! Good thing Gaki is now on Hulu! It's glorious, I really can't get enough of that kind of humor.

After I left the party, Mika and I went to Scott's house to hangout. He had originally invited some of our other friends, but it ended up just being us three.
So what we did was watch Friends, play Egyptian War, and eat brownies with ice cream XD Glorious, I say!
Then we moved our hangout over to Barnes & Noble where we just chilled and read magazines. I really wanted to buy the one I was holding, Computer Arts January 2009 issue, but it was 16$. UK mag, that's why. It had all these tidbits of advice for designers, animators, and artists that I really liked. Stuff like, "ideas don't only come from you" (particularly good for me, I wring my brain totally dry trying to come up with something original), "research your idea" and "collaboration is good" and stuff like that. I already know collaboration is good, lol, I love doing it.

Oh also, I bought soup at the cafe there. Chicken noodle soup... it was pretty damn good :d With crackers!

So now I'm home, trying to sketch but nothing's coming out. D: I feel so uncreative!

Also, this is the last post of January.
(nearly) A post a day for the month of January.
I have to say, blogging every day really got some ideas flowing, even though they went down in January. I had the whole month (nearly) of break and didn't post sketches. :(
Hopefully I will when I don't always feel like "Oh yea, I need to post today." Me + commitments = never really a good pair, unfortunately.

So here ends my journey! If you still find me posting every day, shake me up a bit to remind me that I don't gotta anymore. Yes, this means I won't be doing NaBlo for February. It might've been better to do it then actually, the theme is "Want" and there's only 28 days XD Oh well. If you want to join, just click here and follow the instructions on how to put your name on the blogroll.

The theme for January was "Change," and in it we witnessed Obama's inauguration, definitely a landmark change. As for myself, I do realize that the only constant is change, and sometimes a person and his/her motivations, thoughts, and efforts can change without them knowing it.

Thanks to my friends to did NaBlo this month with me too!
You know who you are, Lauren, Chelsea and Justin. :D

Good luck to whoever decides to keep it up!

Friday, January 30, 2009

Listen, everyone.

A man has just given you one million dollars in cold, hard cash.
He tells you that the only thing required of you is that you leave your life right now and move to New Jersey.

Why New Jersey?

Just don't ask questions. They're watching.


You can't take anything with you aside from the money and the clothes on your back. You have to go, now. He's given you your ticket.

And what if I don't go?

That's not an option.


And once you're there you can't buy a ticket back home, nor can you buy a ticket out to anywhere else. You will be watched, and if you disobey...

What will happen?

You will die. Your family will die. Take your pick.

Why is this...

Will you do it?

Will you do it?

Thursday, January 29, 2009


The song is really, really catchy.

So I just watched America's Best Dance Crew tonight! Quest was sexy, SO SEXY, SO UNBELIEVABLY SEXY! I can't get over how three of them like flipped and rolled over each other, so clean, so BLINDFOLDED. That's nuckin' futs.

Beat Freaks was surprisingly very good tonight. They didn't really impress me until tonight, actually. Adding a bit of femininity to the performance right after the whole man-dancing was just awesome.

Dynamic Edition remains one of my favorites although I must admit they didn't perform their best tonight.

I kind of want to dance again XD I was yay-close to taking Social Dance this semester, but only if I didn't get into the Art History class, which I did. While I was sitting out on the grass during break today one of my friends from Latin Jazz last year passed me by, and she's actually taking an Intermediate Jazz class over at Long Beach City College. Not a bad idea... I do want to start dancing, it feels very good. I should probably look into some yoga first, to kind of prep my body, especially after having gotten out of physical therapy.

Now bask in the greatness!

A few hours before ABDC came on my sister and I watched the MTV show Made. In this episode, a theatre geek wanted to impress the ladies by becoming a hip-hop dancer. His Made coach kept making him do all these weird things to supposedly make him more "hip-hop"... at one point she told him to unbutton his jeans so they can sag, and she even deleted all the songs off his iPod and replaced them, claiming that when chicks see that he's listening to hip-hop, they'll like him.

I toootally disagree with both of those.

I may not know much about hip-hop culture aside from its street-activism roots and the Four Elements, but I don't think sagging your pants makes you hip-hop, or that girls automatically go wild over a dude who tunes into hip-hop. Oh yea, when he saw the lack of his own songs on his iPod, he said, "You can't delete Frankie Valli!"


In the end the dude ended up being a decent dancer, he scored a date with the girl of his dreams, and while he did dress more "hip-hop," his pants didn't sag (they were just baggy and stuff). Hurray!

After the show I asked my sister what she'd want to get "Made" into, and she said hip-hop dancer as well, hahaha. I'd probably say the same thing actually, just because I know it's something I'm totally inherently bad at! Maybe I'd want to be made into like, a funk bass player or something. I've always wanted to learn how to do that.

Anyone wanna teach me bass?


Jordan: Hok from Quest...
Jose: Oh, okay then.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Third... okay, nevermind

Third day, repeat of the first day! Class-wise, at least.

So in Typography I got to introduce myself with my nametag and reveal my hidden talent of saying the alphabet backwards very very quickly. I think I'll post a video of that one day, a long with a scan (there's that word again) of the nametag. I can't get over how cool my teacher is, and how fun the class seems to be so far. I don't think I've ever been this hyped up for a semester!

I didn't fall asleep through Astronautics, woohoo! Christine sat in with me again. All the prof really did was explain how the assignment website worked. For nearly an hour. I think she was just killing time.

Nonverbal Communication is, so far, my favorite class. The teacher is just so kooky and fun, and she gave us a little group thing to do today. And we have experientials! The content is something I've always been interested in, and the way she presents it is just so very neat and efficient with her little pre-arranged packet and stuff. In case you couldn't already tell, interactive classes like this TOTALLY do it for me. I think I'll get a lot from this class, I really do. I'm so excited! I feel just like how I did in elementary school, kind of sad that lesson's over, yelling in my head, "wait! Just go over one more point, just the next point! Please? Please???"

I'm such a nerd.

Oh, this is a comic site my friend showed me a couple years back. It's pretty funny in a weird and sometimes ridiculous way. I love the juxtaposition (I hope I used that right) of the traditional style of pen-ish lineart with modern witticism and just plain whackness. Yes, whackness.

Married to the Sea

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Second day of school! Second day of school!

So I wasn't as fired up for today as I was yesterday. I guess I have all my fun classes on MW :P

I had Computer Art first thing in the morning. I was a little afraid of getting kicked out because I didn't have the listed prerequisite for the class, even though my advisor said I could take it. Thankfully I wasn't kicked out, and neither were some other people who apparently hadn't taken the prereq (I could tell because some of them only knew like one program, like Photoshop). I know a little more than that, meaning Photoshop AND Illustrator (big whoop XD), so I think I should be good. The teacher I have for this class is fairly new, she said this is her 2nd semester teaching here, and she's going to tie our curriculum in with a NASA art competition. WHOA! This totally ties in with my Astronautics and Space class, sorta! I actually kept nodding off during this class as well, and felt like I lost the steam I was blowin' yesterday. It totally felt like three-quarters through the semester all over again! Also, this class and typography are art classes where I don't really know what to expect, unlike foundation drawing and life drawing. It'll be fun!

I then tried to add the class High Renaissance Art in Italy, and will probably get in. The professor was really nice and said that all of us petitioners will probably get in. Hurray! Surprisingly, I didn't fall asleep during that class. I normally do for art history, but the way she lectured kept me awake: it helps if you can tell that your teacher is genuinely interested in teaching the subject as she is about the subject itself.

All my professors this semester are women, hahaha. Just a random observation.

Anyway, the ball is rollin' and I got goin'!

Monday, January 26, 2009

First day of school! First day of school!

Yea yea yea!
Let's get right on this!

The drive to school went remarkably well. There was no traffic on the freeways, and the normal school exit wasn't clogged with student cars. It was eerie. I had to check to make sure it was, in fact, Monday the 26th, and that I indeed started class today.

It wasn't that hard to find parking either. Again, checked the date. This was weird!

Either way, I got there okay (read: pretty damn well) and had my first class at 9:00.
Typography ho!
The class was full up and there were about 10 other people wanting to add. I see they haven't fixed the sections problem :\ The class has gotten higher in demand since they made it a requirement for Industrial and Interior design students last semester.
Anyway, the professor was great, she's so fun and talkative! She also proclaimed herself to be the most lenient grader ever, so I'm a tad relieved. She's very motherly and funny, I think I'm going to have a lot of fun in this class.
I must admit though, reading the syllabus over was a little weird... it called upon the ability to develop concepts and designs, which I'm comfortable doing anyway, but in the realm of type. I've never had to think about that before... perhaps the positioning of type, yes, but never really the look of it. I'm definitely new to this, and I have no doubt that it'll be very interesting and good for me :)

After type I met up to hang out with Christine for a bit, who then sat in my next class with me: Astronautics and Space. I know I said I was extremely and nerdishly excited for this class, but not even that could stop me from nodding off on the first day! I don't know what it was, it's just that when I sat down, I suddenly felt very, very sleepy. All she did was go over the syllabus anyway. Hopefully I don't make a habit of it.
Here's a taste of it, here's why I'm geekin' so hard: "This course combines the disciplines of space engineering with economics, human physiology, satellite meteorology, earth resources and environmental science, astronautics and science, astronautics and space exploration."

Ooh lala, I say. OOH LALA!~

Anyway, after that I met up with my friend Nick so we can head over to our next class, Nonverbal Communication. I already told ya'll why I was excited for this class. It's a big class, but it's not in a lecture hall, so it maintains a bit of intimacy still. In fact, after this first class, I can tell that we're going to reach all sorts of levels of intimacy XD!
It's just the first day and already we did what she called "experientials." Basically it's volunteer demonstrations of what we're learning about, which is nonverbal communication. It's all based around people, so we get all that kind of fun :D
Anyway, the professor had us stereotype her based on her clothing and the way she carried herself. She asked us if we thought if she was married or not, had kids or not, what her favorite music is, etc. It turned out that the way she dressed today is totally not how she dresses normally at all, she just wanted to throw us off! She was all done up in a bidness (yes, bidness) suit and really neat make-up, and she said that she normally dresses very casually. Weird!
Then she had us stereotype two volunteers, and then stereotype a group of people by judging who was the "most intelligent," "coolest," and "most friendly." It was kind of embarrassing because nobody wanted to admit giving into stereotypes such as "I'm voting for the Asian guy coz Asians are stereotypically smart," but I guess that's the whole point.
And yes, I voted for the Asian guy as "most intelligent" :P

Tomorrow I've got Computer Art and am going to try to get into an art history class. I'll report back tomorrow with the results :D I had a fun day at school, and I'm sure tomorrow will be too! Catch ya'll on the flip side!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

My active brain

My mind is very active, and anyone who knows me well enough knows that I'm quite the "fretter": I tend to fret over little things and overthink situations. A lot of my anxiety is self-induced, needless to say :P

But I want to try an experiment I heard of before: Change the radio to a static station, then take a ping pong ball, slice it in half, and tape the halves over your eyes so you only see its white, hollow inside. Lie down.

What you see will be unchanging and what you hear will be unchanging.
The brain thrives on stimulation, and theoretically in this absence of stimulation, it will start to stimulate itself. Some people see images of horses, some hear voices, etc.

A similar experiment was conducted in which volunteers were left in the dark without sound. They started to freak out basically, claiming that someone had called their name or had touched them when really, nobody had.

I kind of want to try this just to see what my mind will think up. It'll be a great way to think up art projects! But at the same time I'm a little afraid of what my mind will conjure. What if, like a drug, it ends up being a "bad trip," a fear I couldn't express in my art, a fever I couldn't sweat out? I'll admit it, I am afraid of my own mind sometimes. I have dreamt some terrifying things.

When I started doing NaBloPoMo for January, I had intended to post a sketch a day. I haven't scanned anything because I'm too lazy to go downstairs into the office, scan my sketches onto my mom's computer, transfer it to mine, and post it. I had thought that I could get much done over the break. José and I have done 2.5 prompts (not that I'm complaining, things like this take time esp. since he has school), and I don't have many good pieces to show for in my sketchbook, unfortunately.

Again I will bet you anything that I will be re-inspired when I start my classes tomorrow XD

I think I'll draw something in José's notebook that he left with me. We went to the LA Art Show with his brother and sister today. It was really fun, a whole lot of little galleries and fantastic art work. One gallery had works done in blood. It was cow blood, but still. Looking at it made me a little nauseous. There was just so much I couldn't tell you everything. I couldn't even show you everything because they didn't allow photography in most areas. The camera won't hook up with my computer right now, but when I get the pics I'll show ya'll.

Anywho, I'd better get to bed kinda early so's I can be all fresh for classes.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Friday, January 23, 2009

Eager to Please

I've been told by various people that my need to please everybody I care about is detrimental to my self-growth. I guess I agree.

The reason why I do it is because ever since I was little I've always hated it when people got mad at me. In my head, if someone got mad at me, it means I messed up. I did something to upset them, which is why they're mad at me. This isn't always true of course, sometimes anger is unfounded and caused by other things and just let out on whoever. But this is the way I've always felt.

It's true: I care about what other people think about me. Scratch that; I care about what the people I care about think about me. I would make the effort to make sure I can make them happy, because I care about them.

This has always made sense to me.

And now I don't know how to stop.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Excited for Spring sem!

Today I went to my school with Christine so we can get things like out parking stickers and a few other things. I got a packet I needed for my nonverbal communications class, which I'm really excited for. It seems really interesting! Apparently it covers "1) theory/research review, 2) mind/body functioning, 3) body image, 4) individual movement style, 5) the use of personal space, 6) congruence of verbal with nonverbal communication, and 7) enhancement of interpersonal relations through practical application." Woohoo! It interests me greatly!

I had to also find out where that class was located, since it was in a building I'd never been in before. It turns out that it's very close to a parking lot I used to park in a lot a few semesters back, but stopped because too many people knew about it after a while. Hopefully I can squeeze in again, I'd hate to have to get aaaall the way over to the structure again. Such lazy talk :P

The subject of body language (and language in general) has always interested me, from the way the American "personal bubble" of space differs from that of the Europeans' to the way you can tell a person's mood. I forgot the percentages, but apparently the greatest part of communication is understood through nonverbal communication like gestures and body language. Second to that is the tone in which you say things, and the actual content of speech carries the lowest percentage. Makes you think, doesn't it?

I'll be sure to tell you aaaall about my classes when they start next Monday!

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Oh, you Vandal, you.

So today at the mall I decided to try on a pair of Nike Vandals.

And I must say...

...they were pretty friggin' sweet.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

America has witnessed a momentous day

but Jordanland has not.

Nothing to report today.

Monday, January 19, 2009


is one of the strangest movies I had ever seen.

So I'm using Twitter more because I actually have friends there now.
I read on Wired that the blogging "age" is over and that microblogging (Twitter, tumblr, etc) has taken its place. Maybe I'm behind the times, but I don't see why it's over, really, or what microblogging really has over a good, rich blog post.

Blogging is more versatile. I don't need a character limit to be able to write short entries, and I can post links, pictures, and videos here just as fine as anyone could on tumblr.

Ah well, to each his own, I suppose :)

Also, I stumbled upon a page full of Dorothy Parker quotes, and I now want to read like all her stuff. I want her wit XD

"In youth, it was a way I had,
To do my best to please
And change, with every passing lad,
To suit his theories.

But now I know the things I know
And do the things I do,
And if you do not like me so,
To hell, my love, with you."

Some day, all too true ;D

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Yes yes, I missed a post

Yesterday, because I didn't have access to the internet.
What a crazy weekend!

Yesterday we the family went down to San Bernardino to see my mom's side of the family. Went to church there, then congregated at my grandma's house before splitting into separate parties: FSK (aka my cousins and I = Kelsey, Alexa, Mika, me) went to a friend's birthday party and I think the moms n' aunts went shopping. I really don't know what else they might've done :P

After the party we scooped up Kelsey's boyfriend Christian and went to Kelsey's for some movies, Twister, and Connect Four. We had to sleep early that night, coz the next morning...

We woke up early so we can head to Mtn. High. Kyle and his family came down from Torrance too :) So we all went up there, fully intending to get to play freely in the snow (Kyle wanted to snowboard) but when we got there we found out that they didn't allow personal sleds (that Kyle's family brought) and that if Kyle wanted to snowboard he needed to buy some expensive package. So much for planning the trip! The only thing we could really do was slide down some slopes with inflatable tube things. At first we were all bummed out, but when we got on the tubes, we were having fun! Ahh, the thrill of going down a hill. We often went in pairs, going on our stomachs and butts and whatnot.
One time Kyle and I went as a pair, I on my stomach and he just sitting. I don't really know what happened, but somewhere down the slope my tube slipped out from under me and I was being plowed down the snow by Kyle on HIS tube! My glove slipped off, I had no idea where my tube was, and after rolling around and being run over by Kyle I was just sprawled out in the middle of the thing. My shoulder blade hurt. I was a little dazed for a while and panting, but I got up and collected my tube and glove and went back up with Kyle XD Apparently nobody else from our group saw it! I wish somebody had recorded it... it must've been a hilarious wipeout :P

After snowtubing we ate at Applebee's, that was surprisingly very filling. My first experience at Applebee's was, admittedly, not very good, but this one redeemed itself XD After that we pretty much just chilled out back at Kelsey's house and then went home.

Staying true to what I had said concerning missed posts in this here entry, I managed to get in a few drawings on the Saturday I missed. I'm rather proud of them too... so I won't post them til I can get them scanned. Otherwise you'll have some crappy webcam shot of them. I'm a little hesitant to color them in with colored pencil, but we'll see how I feel about that later. It's basically a throwback to a very common theme for artists to explore: the signs of the western zodiac. I've done projects where I personified them before, and this is yet another iteration of that. I'll repeat all that when I actually get them posted :P

Friday, January 16, 2009

Creative Expression

I watched the premiere for America's Best Dance Crew last night, and it was pretty sweet. I haven't really watched many episodes of this show before... like, probably the last few of first season, when it was between Kabba Modern and Jabbawockeez and see-I-don't-even-remember-the-other-one. But it was great! I think if I had to compare it to another elimination show, say American Idol, I think it's a lot easier for me to see who I like right off the bat. While we're on that topic, my top 3 are Quest, Dynamic Edition, and Boxcuttuhz. I might have been a bit biased for Quest because José loves them and his breakdancing instructor is a member, but seriously, they're great! I love their choreography and creativity. Dynamic Edition is definitely impressive in that they bring something totally different (clogging) from everyone else to the stage, and Boxcuttuhz is overall very fun to watch. Not to mention that one girl is pretty cute, teehee.

I always say that if I had to have any sort of natural talent that I don't already have, I'd pick dancing. To me, it's one of the most dynamic forms of creative expression, and it uses the human body! We're all so familiar with the human body, but seeing it in motion keeping in time with the beat and music is so satisfying. In fact, I once read an article on why dancing "pleases" the brain so much, and it's because of that kind of coordination. You can read the article here: Why do we like to dance? (Scientific American)

Actually, I'd do well with any type of coordination! I feel like I can move individual parts of my body, but can't coordinate them properly. I'm probably just thinking too much about it — that's what my capoeira instructor always told me, back when I still did capoeira. I should pick it up again...

On the other hand, I'm truly grateful for the artistic talent I already inherently possess. Most of the time I downplay it in order to let myself know I can always get better, but when it comes down to it, I'll admit my talent and be eternally thankful for it. Yesterday before watching America's Best Dance Crew, I was teaching José how to draw. He's been learning since last summer and it's something he really wants to do. What's great is that he's such a good "student" so to speak, so eager to learn and listen and follow instructions. Does it show that I love teaching yet? :P He told me that he wants to be able to express himself in drawing, and I totally feel that way about dancing and just body movement in general.

We've all got things to strive for ;)

What about you — how would you love to be able to express yourself, aside from ways that you already do?

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Wow, colored fanart?

Sorry for the crappy quality ._. Taken with my webcam. Hopefully I can get to scanning stuff soon.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Yet another health update

Tomorrow is my last day of physical therapy. Apparently the period of time in which I can keep scheduling appointments expires on the 18th, and tomorrow is the last day my therapist is in. I'm happy to say that all her work has totally paid off, the breathing problems are less frequent and I have better general mobility in my upper back. I'm still gonna have to take it easy on that, but yea. My right shoulder blade, the original problem causer, has started to hurt again. It cracks and pops, but Korey (therapist) said it was normal, and that it's a "neat party trick" XD I sure hope that's all it is. It's weird... it started with the shoulder blade, then the pain moved to my upper back, then to my ribs, and back over to my shoulder. According to some friends familiar with physical therapy, you know it's working when the pain moves around, because usually all the problems are interconnected. So I'm happy those were all able to be worked out :) Now for that pesky shoulder blade...

Aside from that, I've been having these doubly painful sinus headaches. It's been going on for a good while now, coupled with runny nose and such. I thought it was just a cold, but why the hell would a cold last for like 3 weeks?
Today Korey mentioned that in the news, the most common problem doctors are being confronted with in the past week is really bad sinus headaches and stuff. I jumped on that, hey, I have that! What's going on? She said they're all allergies caused by the SANTA ANA WINDS.

So the Santa Ana winds are supposed to be very very dry, which makes sense because I'm extremely sensitive to dryness. I just didn't know it can cause this kind of pain.

The body I wear is much too fragile for the life I lead :(

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Road Rush

Traffic backed up all the way up the street, no where to go, it's just a waiting game. Waiting waiting waiting. Three lanes, bottlenecking to one. Why can't all road construction on major streets just happen at night?

There's the onramp, crap, I'm running late. 65, 65 is the speed limit, but I have to get there faster. "4 Minutes" by Justin Timberlake and Madonna come on shuffle (my iPod is forever hidden and plugged in) and my foot becomes heavier on the pedal. Why are all these people so slow? This lane, my lane, that lane, I can't find a way out, wait!, an opening!

I ram the gas pedal and smoothly steer out of my hold. Free lane! The car gets heavier with accumulating speed and I'm in control, I'm so fast, so heavy with acceleration and it feels so good. Another opening, and I slide right in. We only got 4 minutes, a-ah, ah 4 minutes.

I'm heavy again, with each turn I gain more weight. I'm a heavyweight. People are watching me now and thinking, "traffic weaver," and I'm speeding past because I only got 4 minutes.

4 minutes and I'm there.

Monday, January 12, 2009

What are your favorite color schemes?

Mine are dark cerulean/light green, wine red/gold, and sometimes hot pink/orange.

What are yours?
(Also, yes, I realize that the colors I chose up there aren't so exact XD)

Sorry that that was a sad excuse for an entry, guys, but I had like 10 minutes on the clock :P
So I'm thinking of going back to tegakie, and if/when I do, you'll actually be able to see the sketches I come up with. Yay! There's also an option to link back to each entry there, so I'll do that and stuff. My tablet still works with my computer, so that's good.

Speaking of artstuff, José and I were supposed to play around with Brendel's airbrushing set, but he wasn't able to get a compressor, so we just went to Pop Monster. Apparently they buy and sell the work of local artists! I should czech it out sometime. It's pretty close to my old workplace. I should czech them out too, just to see what's up. But yea, I've aaaalways wanted to try airbrushing since it's so versatile and cool; they're so expensive though! I think Brendel just became my new best friend. Just kidding ;P

Inspiration-wise I might've sagged a little from seeing the work of some brilliant artists. It happens. I'll get back on my feet again.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

I have a soft spot for pin-ups

From my sketchbook, taken with my webcam.
Drawn while half asleep XD

Saturday, January 10, 2009

I dreamt of Heaven

Last night I dreamt of Heaven.

I was sitting in a lecture hall where some prestigious theoretical physicist was lecturing. He spoke of other dimensions, signs of such supposed anomalies and how they manifested in different cultures and religions. In the dream I was very much intrigued, as all those topics and how they relate interest me greatly, but right now as I'm awake I can't remember much of the details of the lecture. He then goes on to point out that, in Seventh-Day Adventist belief, when a person dies, his soul is at rest until Judgement Day. When the Second Coming happens, God will rid the Earth of sin and welcome His followers into the Kingdom of Heaven. As the lecturer said this, he played a little animated clip of our Earth as it is now, with cities and smog and disaster, transforming into a "new earth" as it was supposed to be... filled with nature and everything happening naturally.

I woke up with the thought, "New Earth..."

What if that's what Heaven is?
I know nobody at all knows what it's supposed to be like or look like, aside from the fact that it's free of sin. But what if what happens is He just restores our planet? Like another Great Flood or something, but permanent.

This sped me along this fantastical train of thought, like, what if we mess up again? What if the original Garden of Eden was a Heaven for a time before? What if there's a cycle, and God just creates over and over and over again? I wouldn't doubt it, I mean, I do believe in life existing in other worlds. In the New Earth, our Heaven, will humans interact naturally with nature? Do we still rule over everybody? Can we directly ask God for stuff? God, can I please fly? Please?

I don't really expect anyone to spoil me with further thoughts on this, I just wanted to get it all out. It's kinda fun to think about, right?

Friday, January 9, 2009

I feel as though I've been jumpstarted!

Ever since that last project I basically did a mad-dash to finish, I've felt unbelievably artistically invigorated. I want to do all SORTS of things now: I want to buy a screenprinting kit and experiment my brains out, I want to paint more more MORE, I want to play the piano, I want to play the sax again, I want to buy more jazz albums, I want to get better at chess and Risk and basically everything José's beaten me at, and thank God this all came while I was still on BREAK!

What I really need though is a job, I need some cashflow to fuel my flights of passing fancies and suchnot. OH! I need to sell my books online! That's some hefty cashflow right there, I need to, yea! All right!

Jumpstarted inDEED!

Wow, I got little flecks of paint on my laptop...
...Galaxy now has some STARS! Ahahahaha!

Anyway, a few days back I told Chelsea that she should write a short story for a blog, and I'd do the same. On that very day, I did not! So I will make up for it by writing a short story right now, in the spirit of Chelsea's Adventures of Audrey!


Tatiana wasn't always a small girl: back in elementary school she towered over her classmates, sitting tall and pretty among the top five tallest kids in the class. Her long and lanky build made her queen of the court when it came to tetherball and basketball. However, she didn't appear to fit well with her height: oftentimes she felt quite awkward and didn't really know what to do with herself.

When she moved to the U.S. and reached middle school, she stopped growing and remained skinny as a string bean. Having lived abroad prior, the U.S. was quite the culture shock to her! People here were so much more boisterous... and tall.

As young Tatiana grew, she basically had adolescence slapped across her face in the form of braces and glasses. Can you imagine a string bean with glasses and braces? Because that's what she was. And because moving to the U.S. had overwhelmed her, she retreated into a little shell and stopped playing much sports. Her nerd levels rose exponentially.

Poor Tatiana, the string bean! She once towered above her class, now her friends used her head as armrests! Little did she know that a trip to the Philippines would push her weight, finally, past 100 pounds.

And where did those extra pounds go?


Now, she didn't think much of it at the time. Her family had commented that she had filled out, particularly in the face – Tatiana had heard that the face was the last thing to fill out in weight gain, so she was quite pleased. Perhaps the string bean should look more proportional now! Then her family pointed out her booty. It, too, had grown. It had never had much attention paid to it before, ever. At all! But now all eyes were on the booty that had magically appeared.

It wasn't just her family, either – her friends had the audacity to point it out! Surely, Tatiana thought, if they speak up about it, it must be quite noticeable! She was not one to be too obsessive about her body, but this was something to be obsessed about!

One day a friend of hers jokingly called her "Bubble Butt." Tatiana put up with it, but after a while, it made her very angry. She attacked the poor boy during lunch, slapping at his shoulders and pulling at his hair! She didn't appreciate such remarks about her freshly grown posterior, as she was not yet comfortable with it! It was like a new body part had nestled itself into her, and she was struggling to get used to it.

But in the future, the Universe would do well to Tatiana: in later years she slowly filled out and became more proportional, to match the booty it had bestowed upon her years before. Needless to say, Tatiana is quite comfortable with her body now, and when she asks of you, "Does my butt look big in this?" the correct answer would be, "yes, yes it does."

To which she would proudly respond, "Good."


Yes, it is silly! Silly silly silly silly silly! XD

Thursday, January 8, 2009

I didn't need a horoscope page to tell me

that I'm better at adapting than I am at inventing.

It's something I realized as I was playing chess with José (in fact, I'm STILL playing him). I don't go into the game with a strategy in mind (honestly, I'd like to meet someone who does), I just adapt to the other person's game. José won the first game within 20 minutes. We're on the second game now, and we've been dancing for about 40. Chess really isn't my game though, I play by the turn and lack foresight. It's been 50 minutes now, and I just lost.

Same reason why it takes me forever to start any art project on my own. I'm better when someone gives me a prompt... I guess I'll make at least a decent graphic designer.

I'm better at group projects, where I can bounce ideas off others. Believe me, I can bounce like mad XD

Are you better at inventing, or adapting?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Proof that I AM doing art!


I swear, I was just struck by a lightning bolt of inspiration/motivation today. I really can't equate it to anything else, because I felt it, and I jumped up and said, "I HAVE TO DO THIS!!" So I pulled out a chunk of illustration board, cut it, took out my paints and went at it. There were a few times when I thought "wait, this idea is stupid" but that was pretty much overruled by "GET THIS IDEA OUT OR YOU'LL DIE, YOU'LL DAMN DIE!" :)

When that happens, I have to make a playlist to get me pumped. Some fast loud music does the trick, anything with a repetitive and steady beat also does the trick. If I'm doing some analytical drawing, bossa nova seems to work best.

When I have at least an hour and a half's worth of music, I get started. As you can see up there, I'm doing a painting, and it's really easy for me to get lost in it. I haven't really taken a painting class before, so all these techniques and whatnot are totally lost in me, which allows for a lot of experimentation on my part. Laying paint down in huge strokes is more soothing to me than drawing contours or hatching. Which is funny, because I've had more training in drawing and stuff. Maybe I like painting now because I'm not bound by these rules in my head. I need to remember this sort of freedom all the time.

Anyway, time stands still when I'm painting. That's so cliché, but that's how I feel. Hours can go by and I wouldn't notice. I do take breaks (like right now), but when I'm doing a project it's like time doesn't really matter. I go into a daze, a frenzy, and when I take a break and come back I go, Wow, did I really just do that? How long did I spend on it?

These moments of lightning-strike inspiration and bullet-train motivation are few and far between, I'm ashamed to admit. But they still come, and the feeling of consumption I experience when that happens will always be there.

That's why I'm still an artist.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


What a sad, sad, little post.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 18 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 18 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If you don't comply absolutely nothing unusual will result. Only do this if you care to, no Karmic retribution.

1. I was tagged to do this on Facebook, but seeing as I already have one similar to this on Facebook, I'll post it here.
2. I prefer ellipticals to treadmills and bicycling to running.
3. My music taste is composed of most of my friends' music: I hardly search for new music on my own, I usually take recommendations and like what I like :)
4. Most people find me to have a solid personality, but in fact, I'm actually very much effected by what other people think. They don't always manifest, but they constantly feed through me for analysis :P
5. I think "manifest" is one of my favorite words, as is "galaxy." I'LL MANIFEST YOUR GALAXY
6. I'm craving Vienna sausage with eggs and rice right now. Filipino breakfast ftw!
7. I fret a lot... more than I should, really. Things end up way better than I fret about, so I really should just learn my lesson and stop damn fretting XD
8. I'm really interested in the aspect of psychology that goes into personality and how it can MANIFEST in a person's physical appearance, effect their surroundings, behavior, etc. I don't actually formally know anything about it, I should do some research.
9. I want to learn how to play the harp, the bass guitar, and the harmonica ("blues harp" :P).
10. I used to love winter until I moved to California. Winters here are incredibly dry, sapping what moisture is left from my already-dry skin. Bastard lack of humidity.
11. Life Drawing class really made me appreciate arches in the feet more. I love those arches :d
12. Life Drawing class actually gave me new favorite body parts: love handles, the iliac crest, shoulder blades, and the small of your back. Yes, YOUR back.
13. I never really had any problems with body image. I know I'm not perfect, but I'm totally fine with the way my body looks. Now, if we're talking about the way my body WORKS, that's another story...
14. I really, REALLY love 90's dance music. I grew up on that stuff!
15. I love carrying jokes on and on and on into ridiculousness.
16. It really irritates me when, in a discussion solely within the realm of the fiction, some bastard cuts in with, "Oh well, it's just a movie/cartoon/play/book/TV show."
17. The ultimate "test" for new pants for me is sitting down in them. If I can sit down and not feel like my abdomen is being cut into, then I'm good to go.
18. On the topic of pants, I really hate the way girls' pants are sized in like "2" and "4" or "12" or whatever. I want width and length measurements, just like the boys! Apparently women's pants are sized that way to help our fragile self-images. Let me tell you, a size 4 this year is not the same as a size 4 a few years ago! A size 5 at The Gap is not the same as a size 5 at Kohl's! Women do not benefit from being deluded with changing sizes! Let's jsut keep it simple with the measurements, okay? Please? At least that way we're all being honest here.


Monday, January 5, 2009

The days are ticking by

and I haven't scanned a thing. I'm sorry, fellows. January's off to a slow start. It's only the fifth. I've got the rest of the year.

Here's what I've got to do:
  • Finish my art projects
    -stuff like sketching for José's writings, Watchmen fanart, that one Wall-E pic I didn't finish, sketching sketchin sketching in general
  • Look for a job
  • Get my books for the semester
  • Sell all my old books
    -btw guys, I'm trying to do this online. Any pointers?
  • Get parking pass for the semester
Pretty much just preparing for the semester. I'm excited for school :)
Sorry, my posts are so boring nowadays... ugh.
I've taken the feed off facebook because it doesn't link back to the original post anymore. That, and I don't think people would care much, with posts like these.

So José lent me his Nintendo DS, since he figured if I'm considering buying it, I should try it out and stuff. So far I really like it, but then again, I've only played one game: Phoenix Wright, Ace Attorney. It's a courtroom drama game, and it's amazingly fun! I admit I kinda doubted its fun-ness, despite its huge fanbase, but I really like it. I spend my busy moments waiting for the next time I can pick it up again and finish the next case XD

Brent and I got a good start on part 3 of our story, which is amazing... usually we don't progress until a few months after we've distributed the last part! It's mostly me that's on a roll because I get all hyper about it, but at least we have a plot going. We planned this one out this time. Yay!

Speaking of Brent, he makes me want to visit Russia more and more.

That is all for today.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

B for "But, but but--!"

I checked my grades online and was pretty satisfied, for the most part. I got an A in Chinese, an A in Latin Jazz, a B in Political Science... and a B in Life Drawing!?

I didn't get it. I honestly expected an A.
The final grade was supposedly based on four components: the midterm portfolio, the midterm homework, the final portfolio and the final homework. I know for a fact that I scored A's on my midterm portfolio and homework. When my friend Nick went to get my porfolio from her, he said that she had given me a B+ on my final portfolio (don't get why, I had more A's in that one...), and an A on my homework because I had done so well. I could've guessed that, she loved my homework. So that's 3 A's and a high B; what gives?

I'm not liking this... I need to be getting A's in my art classes. I know a B is still a good grade, even if it's a high B like it probably might be, but still.

It's not an A.

Saturday, January 3, 2009


Today I posted a note on facebook with a simple question and a simple request:

What is love?
Tell me via comment.

I wasn't sure how many people would respond, or how many people would respond intelligently with thoughts of their own. Love is, aside from being a many splendored thing, very multi-faceted, and on top of that subjective, so I was excited to see what I'd get. I was betting there would be at least one person to say "baby don't hurt me, dont hurt me, no more" and I wasn't disappointed XD

In everything else, I wasn't disappointed.
Here are the answers I got:

What is love?
  • Scott
    falling asleep in someone's arms
  • James B.
    It is what made an injured Darth Vader kill the Emperor in order to save the life of his son in 'Return of the Jedi' Now, THAT, is love :D
  • José
    Placing someone's value over the value of the self. Making them stronger makes you stronger. Love is happiness, contentment, joy, bliss, struggle, achievement, everything.
  • Brendel
    baby don't hurt me. baby don't hurt me. no more.
  • Mika
    love is donating 7 organs, lawl
  • Heidi
    Okay I'm going to attempt being deep AND geeky. Given that I've been on a KotOR kick lately, and I already have it in my profile anyway, here's a quote from the muderous assassin droid HK-47.

    "Definition: 'Love' is making a shot to the knees of a target 120 kilometers away using an Aratech sniper rifle with a tri-light scope. Statement: This definition, I am told, is subject to interpretation. Obviously, love is a matter of odds. Not many meatbags could make such a shot, and fewer would derive love from it. Yet for me, love is knowing your target, putting them in your targeting reticle, and together, achieving a singular purpose, against statistically long odds."

    At first one might think, "lol bloodthirsty assassin droid is bloodythirsty" but seriously man, think about it.
  • Steve R.
    anal sex... pure and simple
  • Justin
    ...I think love is also having those strong feelings for someone because of their faults just as much as their strong points, not just despite those faults.

    Love is pain, love is passion, love is bitter, love is fire, love is a raging sea and a gentle breeze. It's everything good and bad all rolled in to one thing, because you can't have the good without dealing with some of the bad. You'll never know what the good really is, if you don't feel the bad.

    It can hurt, and it can heal.

    "Love is all we need".

    "What the world needs now, is love, sweet love".

    May seem corny to use songs like that, but it's so accurate. Love makes the world go round. It's everything.
  • Chelsea
    I wish I could give you a great answer, but I've never been in LOVE love. I guess the only thing I think it might be is that excited feeling you get when they call for no reason or the security of knowing that there will be somebody that will go way out of their way to make sure that you'll be happy if you're down.

    Like, a super best friend. With sex.

  • Young
    Love is like the elusive unicorn.... majestic, beautiful, and completely fictional... CYNICISM FOR THE WIN!
  • Gwen
    To me, love is understanding, acceptance, and happiness. Plain, simple, and to the point.
  • Tim
    Love is... despite time, separation, change, distance, sexuality, opinion, religion, choices, appearances, faults, advantages, disadvantages, normality, eccentricities or what brand of shoes they wear... you stick by them forever.
  • Nataly
    it's like light, we think it's white
    but there is so much to it...
    it splits into many colors, it is real and non-real (duo nature of waves and particles)
    I don't really know much about waves or particles
    I don't really know much about L

When I think of love, I tend to think of this quote by James Thurber:
"There are two kinds of light: the glow that illuminates, and the glare that obscures."

Friday, January 2, 2009

Weird way to start the year

I'm beginning to regret my decision to do NaBloPoMo again. I've been feeling a little slow lately, as though I'd been pushed back some. I'm more irritable nowadays for the smallest things, and although it's only been going on for about a week, I feel like it won't ever end. The days go by slowly. I wish I could start school as soon as my sister or my other friends who attend UC's; they start classes next Monday.

My original intention for keeping up with NaBlo for January was so I could sketch every day and show you the results. I'm still posting every day, and yes, you will get a sketch from each day of January. They won't be that good. Maybe you'll get some good ones, sometimes, but most of them will not be that good. I'm thinking of moving my NaBlo focus to my other blog on tegaki-e, which is a blog site where everything is entirely hand-drawn – the entries and the comments and the user profiles alike. Yes, this means I'll have to do it all on computer, but that will only make it more convenient for me.

I've been irritable lately, and I don't really feel like sketching every day, but I will. When I sketch I get frustrated with myself, like I'm trying to put out something good, but something's blocking me from realy being as good as I want to be. Maybe I'm blocking me.

I wanted some change, but I'm off to a rough start.
It's only the 2nd.
This, too, shall pass.

Also, change is one letter away from chance.
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Thursday, January 1, 2009

I'm here, in the New Year!

By golly gosh, it's the New Year. I have signed up to do NaBloPoMo again for the month of January. This time, I will attempt to put up a sketch every day. TRY. I do not have a scanner compatible with my computer right now, but I'll find a way. Either way, I'm sketching every day.

I actually wanted to talk about something non-art related, and more New Year related.

A few years ago I ahd given up on the idea of making "New Years Resolutions." I never seemed to follow through on them, and I figured, if I just wanted to do something, I'd feel my own motivation to do it, and on my own time. I don't want to force myself based on some tradition to do it at the beginning of the year. So I haven't made New Years Resolutions for the past few years. This year that's going to change.

After going through some mental and physical stress, I realized that I kinded needed an overhaul. So this year I'm making it my New Year's Resolution to improve my immune system.

Strange? It makes sense.
During the Las Vegas trip I kept falling asleep in the car... I did through the whole 4 hours we were driving, not even waking up. I feel asleep in restaurants, cars, other places, guh, it was pretty bad. My aunts started to worry about me. I don't know what it was, but Vegas made me feel terrible. It isn't just then, either: I constantly fall asleep at family functions, random times of the day, and I just feel tired. Maybe I'm just fatigued, and I don't want to be a hypochondriac by pointing at something else, so I won't.

To help me fulfill and maintain my resolution, I have enlisted the help of this webpage: How to Develop a Strong Immune System. Straightforward, no? These are very easy to follow, but I am sometimes bad at keeping commitments like these. Yes, it is indeed a commitment, a change in lifestyle. Basically, I must
  • Think positively
  • Have lots of Vitamin C in my body
  • Water water water water water
A lot of really common sense things I don't always follow. It does mention the benefits of resting a lot, but I rest too much. I want to get to the point where I rarely get sick and I don't fall asleep at parties unless it's past like 3AM. That would be glorious :) Sleeping's become somewhat of an escape for me: when I'm hurt, angry, sad, confused, or simply bored, I will sleep. No more.

Anyway, do you make New Years Resolutions? If so, what are they?
If you do, good luck in keeping them.
If not, may your 2009 be just as fulfilling and prosperous.