Friday, April 30, 2010

I used to be so bright

and full of ambitions.

As the years went on, one by one those ambitions were crushed. Put away for another day, and then forgotten. I told myself not to dream and not to think: it's not going to happen. Not now. Just focus on what's happening now.

I almost lost the ability to dream amazing things. I still have it, it's just lying dormant. Hopes, dreams, ambitions... where are they? Can I recall them at all? The only dreams I have nowadays are violent ones. Struggles. Always struggling.

Maybe that's why I haven't been so creative lately.

And damn it José, I miss you already.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Safe to say that I failed

To think I had such high hopes for putting out a sketch per day on this blog. I gotta hand it to me though, I did keep it up for about 2 months. Then it started to intimidate me. I thought more about the quality of my sketches, and obviously I can't churn out something amazing every single day. I know that's the point of the whole exercise/challenge, but I'm just not mentally ready for it.

Nowadays I actually do sketch more often than I used to, and without the obligation of posting it. Probably because of school heh, but now I don't feel like a mild anxiety attack coming on when I put pen to paper. Now I just need to work on the same thing for computer art. Baby steps.

5 classes this semester, 3 of them studio arts. It's kind of killing me. I can feel that I'm only doing a mediocre job in all of them. This isn't going to be an all-A's semester (I guess I shouldn't have gotten used to those 2 glorious semesters it did happen). After all this, my mom still wants me to fill my class load to the brim with 6 classes next semester. All I gotta say is heeeeeellll no, not this time. I'm going to drop out of one of the art classes, because I'm tired of mediocrity.

I really hope my life will be better after college. I feel like it's "just okay" right now, that all the good stuff is just around the corner, beyond a door I can't open yet. You know when that happens like in Zelda games? You have to get the giant key so you can get another heart container or something? It's like that.

Only thing is, I don't know what the key is, and I don't know what's beyond the door.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Don't even say it—

Here's another comic done for the student paper, The Union.
Since the last one was a little rushed in both the art AND the naming of the comic (Cephalopoda? Really?), I decided to both step up my game a little and make the comic relevant to the title. Doesn't have to be, but I thought it'd be cool.


Sunday, April 18, 2010

Mad Dogs

Here's a comic I drew for my school's student-run paper, The Union.
Newspaper comic debut! Huzzah!
It's pretty rushed and I'm retarded when it comes to shading, so please forgive.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

The Illusion of Snowboarding

Top: What you imagine will happen
Bottom: What actually happens 90% of the time

I do love snowboarding :P

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Super sketch dump

Hey guys. I know I haven't been posting sketches every day like I said I would, and I totally failed that whole thing. That happens to me a lot: I'm good at starting things, crap at following through or finishing. Story of my life. Anyway, here are a bunch of sketches and I hope it can at least make up for the days I missed in April.

Last weekend I went to the San Diego Zoo with my family and took my recycled-paper sketchbook with me. I drew animals whenever I could, but they're not that detailed since we didn't stay at any one exhibit for too long.

This is a polar bear's head, just in case you couldn't really tell. He was sleeping right up against the glass! Aww!

And then I drew these today while I was sitting in the café at Borders. I didn't plan on sketching a bunch of people, but it just happened. I'm glad it did. I feel a little bit better now.

I particularly like the last two people I sketched. They didn't move around as much, which was good, although I observed them putting their hands up to cover their faces, and it made me wonder if they know I was drawing them XD